Really Really Really Sad

Bloggiiiiiiieeeee !!!!! totally sad ar !!!! x"(((((((((((((((((( mun pat aeq mta drah skali klua, nang dah klua la nya. xtahan g ku cmtok. nang stress alu2!!! I JUST CAN SAY IM REALLY DEEPLY HURTING, BROKEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! x'((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!! ku dahlh xkuat, byak mslah g mk pk, dh cgek, cgek g mslah, astagaaaa. guz mati jak !! AMENNN!! AMEN!! AMEN !! AMEN !!! I WISH I DIE TONIGHT.................... ritok bpa kali dh ku dgr lgu Yours To Hold ya.. so touching.... Bloggie, nya da pdah something an ku tek, ku xpat timak pa nya pdah ya. dhlh xda mud, tryin to cheer myself up. smpey ku tpksa pura2 ku okay, p pas nya mdah dkya, OH GOSH. lemah trus ku. mgalir indah aeq mata. G ingat ku, ku xpnah mmahaminya, paloi ku kan bloggie??? nang pun. aku bdo, ank malang. spa nok bsama an aku, sorry coz ssahkan hdp torang. aku xpat brik kbahagiaan kat torang, kat kwan2 ku, family, and theLOVEone, SO so sorry to all of u. aku asa bsalah alu2 an torang, especially kwan2 ku ya, sorry guys coz xda lpak2 an torang g. Lpak drik smpey xingat kwn, jaik aku kan?? and my LOVE , i really2 didnt mean to hurt u, i love u syg. im sorry 4 everything that i've done to you. Im sorry coz im not the right girl 4 u. i messed it all up, i had no idea why i gettin myself into this problem, i just wanna say im sorry 4 everything that happened just now. Something that i am living deep inside, depicts the illusion of myself and all i have to hide. Sayang....,, im sorry k. x'((((((((

"Im sorry for everything u've been through It must been very hard on u Im sorry for all thats been said and done I was the star and u were the mon Im sorry for not making everything right But the situation i was in, was very tight Im sorry for not lending u a hand If only i could be a better girlfriend Im sorry if it seemed like i didnt care Im sorry for breaking ur heart"

Love is grand, yet it hurts so much. The price u pay is high and if i could choose between love and death, i'd rather choose to die.they say, most of them, if u die, u r free from all problems that keep haunting u. No wonder la byk lu suicide blaku. But , honetly, i feel emptiness, lost, alone, sad, hated, scared, doubt, im confusing with this <3 , this story of my life . I HATE MY LIFE SO MUCHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!! x'(((((((( OFF !!!!!!! BYE bloggie, n thanx 4 accompany me tonight. Tell him that i love him so much k? How do i live without u myLOVE. x'(((( Hmmmmmmm..... GBU all.... once again, im so so so damn sorry...........

IM NOT PERFECT FOR YOU. IM SORRY. x'(

They CHILL my night

Hey bloggie :) Ehehee. stakat ok kondisi ku, ehee. cuma worry sal keadaan dunia yg makin ary makin teruk. ugh! x| hmmm.. btw, td ku klua an Atud (pama), n kwannya Viey. ehee. mek owg agak MCD~ mgidam eh. ehehee, Yummm2, torang ada x? xdaaaa, neyyyy. Bluueeekksss. ehehee. xlama jak klua tek, gak MCD, kakya trus blit. ilek2 di umah jak, on9 jk kja, facebooking 24 jam smpey mata jd itam. LOLs. hmmm. mlm marek pun ku klua juak, g Revo party rah Imperial Mall hotel an Ballesteros, Richie Mick, Atud, n Alex.

Firstly, nang boring laaa.. lma2 , astagaaa, lemah plak lutut ku. fuhhhhh. bnyak gilak dosa, ney nda. pasya, mek owg agak Submarine jak. mnum cya. Atud an Richie jk still stay, nok len balit daaa. :) Kat submarine cya klaka smpe tetak2, paloi ada. nang lawak laa. AHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAA *hnya Tuhan jk yg tauk* ehehee. dahla bru blit dari *party Tuhan*, ingat mok insaf tek. P xjd laaa. =.=" aiyaaaaa. Budak2 jaman sikalang manyak ssah lor. x) Ermmm. Bloggie, aku rindu eh an "abg angkat" ku ya. xD ahahahahaa. Nah pa dipolah nya kinek, msg ku pun nya x eply, kali tdo eh. X mok la ngaco nya. Bia nya jd Sleeping Beauty cya. ehehee. x) SWEET~
Syg, i love u aa. U love me??? *tatuk mode on* xP Ouhya, syg, i got one song for u. Jap k? Me nyanyi......... xP eheee. eheemmmm2....

"Here we are, in the best years of our lives.

With no way of knowing, when the 

Whee'll stop spinning cause we don't

Know where we're going...

And here we are, on the best day of our lives.

And it's a go, lets make it last, so cheers you 

All to that, 'cause this moment's never comin' back

I used to know her brother, but I never

Knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her

Eyes on me. Now I'm jumpin' up and down, 

She's the only one around, and she means

Every little thing to me

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your

Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,

Whenever I think about you. I've got

Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so

Long since we've been talkin' and in a few

More days, we'll both hook up, forever and ever

And here I am, on the west coast of 

American and I've been tryin' to think for weeks of

All the ways to ask you, And now

I've brought you to the place, Where I've 

Poured my heart out, a million times, for a million

Reasons, To offer it to you

I used to know her brother, but I never

Knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her

Eyes on me. Now I'm jumpin' up and down, 

She's the only one around, and she means

Every little thing to me

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your

Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,

Whenever I think about you. I've got

Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so

Long since we've been talkin' and in a few

More days, we'll both hook up, forever and ever

I used to know her brother, but I never

Knew I loved her, 'till the day she laid her

Eyes on me. Now I'm jumpin' up and down, 

She's the only one around, and she means

Every little thing to me

I've got your picture in my wallet, and your

Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,

Whenever I think about you. I've got

Your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so

Long since we've been talkin' and in a few

More days, we'll both hook up, forever and ever"

You know this song aite syg? Lagu FM Static ya bah, MOMENT OF TRUTH <3 :)
I dedicate this song to you. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH RICHIE :')

Fix me? :'(

     

Bloggie dear, malang na hari tok koh. mcm2 bnda blaku, ku asa mati bgus g bah. Xda msalah, tenang asa. bna x? Hopefully mati awal. AMEN. ppfffttttt. benciiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! knak la ada biak nok xpuas aty indah an aku, knl pun sik. sialllllllll!!!! Bna2 hot la ku tek, cibaaaaiiiiiii itu pompuan!!!!! x| P ku nang puas aty bab dah kasi kemek nya pun hidung, sak ko. ya boh cari hal an ku paloi! Grek ko ya pun sma juak cam ko, nama jak lelaki, bertatoo p pngecut! paloi ada. 2 kali 5 la torang ya, bab yala, fkir lok sblom mk sbar cta bulak ko ya. kan dah kna, nasib bdn laa. hrap2 hidung ko ya pecah. xku duli koh. LANTAK KO LAAAAA!!!! choooyyyyyy!!! .|. Hmmmm. tok cgek g msalah, knak ku tok myusahkan hdup nya ou. Paloi na juak ko katie2, tnga ko pa ko dah polah an nya,. ko x pnah da masa utknya, xpnah mmhaminya. cuba pkey, pa nok ko pnah polah tok nya???? xda nak. paloi2. *Hmmmmmm.... bkn tok nok aku mok. aku cuma mok nya paham prasaan aku jak, aku xmok nya tlibat an msalah aku, mcm la nya xtauk ku tok, xsuka mnyussahkan nya baaa. please laaa. cba pkey cmney mun nya lam keadaan aku?? </3 Hancur tauk x aty ku tek time tnga status nok nya pdah ku xmmahami nya. hancur2. xtauk g ku mok mdah apa. mgalir aeq mata baca pa nok nya pdah. aku sdar aku spa, nang dari dlok2 xpnah da owg nok bna2 syg aku. mdah syg gilak2 pa suma, xkan polah tok, xkan polah ya, but i know, THATS ALL NONSENSE. aku xda hak mok nanok2 owg smbarangn, aku xdahak mk ngajar owg, aku xda hak mk mksa owg bna2 sygkan aku, aku xbhak atas apa2. aku tauk spa drik aku, bab ya aku lebih suka hdup sorang2, mun klua an kwn pun just happy utk smntara jak.hdp aku kosong, xda bnda nok best.p cgek jak, aku tauk pa ku buat n ku still leh fkir an waras, cuma kdg2 mun ku dah desperated alu2 ya, cdeh thap dewa, nang ku lukakan drik. bru ku puas aty.biar owg mdah ku tok gila ka apa, this is me,okay? korang trimak or x, tpulang k? ku x mksa. I KNOW WHO I AM.*

 To theLOVEone, i dont know what should i say to u. i just can say im so sorry 4 everything. By xperfect. by xbaka pgn dear suba, by xmnah baka cda. by cg ketu, sorry. by xulih brbah, coz dari suba2 by mmg ketu.sorry syg, by xspt indu yg dear kak. im so so sorry 4 everything. I have so much that i want to give but u do not want to receive. Hmmmm. i also have so much that i want to say to u but i didnt have a guts to tell u. its all about my feeling, im scared to love u, coz i dont wanna lose u. :'( I have so much that i want to show, i have so much that i want to do but u do not want to be with. :'| I have too much love b4, but u cannot understand. And now i realise that i am in love with u. U know what dear? I always sad on ur behaviour. But, nvm, i still love u. i really do. :') Muaaahhhssss.

arghh.. Bloggie dear, really2 need a doctor right now, please fix me, im broken enough. </3 HELP ME GOD...... Give me strength to faced all of my problems. I have nobody who really2 understand my situation. i just have u God, save me from this pain. aku xkuat mok hadapi suma tok, ku xda spa2 g. cdeh ku baaa. im all alone, everyday n its gonna be forever. I knowww..... It will be better if i am dead, kan? no more problems, no more tears, no more loneliness, no more pain. I really wish. pray 4 me, aite? Wuwuwwuwuuwuwuwuwuuu..... speechless dah ku.. OFF# bye~ </3 x'(